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FYI / TMI November 28, 2005

Posted by introspectreangel in Boy-o, food, life.

Don’t do it. Don’t even think about buying the Great Value brand of Three Cheese Chicken and Pasta with Vegetables. I’ve been horking my guts up all day because of it. FOR THE SECOND TIME. I thought that first bag 6 weeks ago or so was a fluke!

And on a completely unrelated topic, will this wind EVER QUIT? As amusing as it is to stand Boy-o on the front porch and watch him lean into the gale just to stay upright, I’m afraid it really might sweep him off his feet, so inside we stay.


Happy New Year! November 27, 2005

Posted by introspectreangel in faith.
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Happy New Year! Today is the first Sunday of Advent and the beginning of a new church year.

As the world around me prepares for Christmas with an ever increasing emphasis on material things, the Church directs my gaze toward the spiritual. The liturgical calendar begins differently from the secular calendar precisely because the Church, while in the world, is not of the world. Advent is a penitential season because Christmas is about preparing for the arrival of Jesus Christ, not about external celebrations. My family’s external celebrations are a visible manifestation of our joy at being disciples of Jesus Christ. I can almost see some of you shaking your heads as you think about these words in relation to some of my other posts of the last few days. Remember, Jesus embraced sinners with the command to, “Go, and sin no more.” So, we keep trying.

It’s easy to get distracted. During the later part of November and for most of the month of December, much of the world around us is consumed with one huge party. The meaning of Advent is lost. The true sense of Christmas and the beautiful feast days leading up to Epiphany are also lost because most people are exhausted and broke. The incorrect and excessive celebrations have already taken place and at the wrong time.

We need to be very cautious. Advent, rather than serving as a time of preparation, can become one huge external distraction.

As I do every year, I plan to let this Advent be a time of conversion and a time of decision. Advent is a time to wake up. “Be watchful! Be alert! You do not know when the time will come.” (Mark 13: 33)

Collect of the Day: Almighty God, give us grace to cast away the works of darkness, and put on the armor of light, now in the time of this mortal life in which your Son Jesus Christ came to visit us in great humility; that in the last day, when he shall come again in his glorious majesty to judge both the living and the dead, we may rise to the life immortal; through him who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen.

sometimes November 26, 2005

Posted by introspectreangel in addiction, family, lyrics, marriage.
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last song lyrics for awhile, i promise…

i see a river
it’s oceans that i want
you have to give me everything
but everything’s not enough

it’s my desire
to give myself to you
sometimes i try
sometimes i lie with you
sometimes i cry
sometimes i die it’s true
somewhere i find something that’s kind in you

and i’ve crossed the line again
a line i drew in sand
and still you give me everything
but everything’s not enough
i’m ready but not willing
to give myself to you

come on over lay down beside me
and i’ll try
come on over lay down beside me
and i’ll try
and i’ll try

i want it all


here on our home front, healing is taking place. we both crossed the lines we had drawn in the sand, but we are putting the pieces back together, just like we always do, and just like we always will.

my mom told me before i married that the only reasons that i should ever entertain the idea of divorce were for what she called “the 3 A’s” – adultery, addiction, or abuse. she qualified that with the statement that divorce did not need to be automatic on these grounds – couples can work through these situations – but that these were the only grounds upon which it should ever even be considered. in other words, if these were the grounds, then you could go your separate ways with a clear conscience. i trusted her words, knowing that she and my dad came very close to the edge a few years ago, but recently celebrated their 32nd anniversary anyway, stronger than ever.

in my paltry-by-comparison 3 years married, we have encountered all three of “the 3 A’s”. each time we mess it up, the recovery time to normalcy in our day in and day out lives with each other happens more quickly. is this because we are becoming numb to the betrayals, or because we are learning better how to forgive each other? i’ll have to think about that one. but for now, everything is good. it’s better than good, actually, because we’ve walked through the fire once again.

tonight is the last home game of the season for the high school football team, and the last home game ever for my husbands’ young cousin, who is a graduating senior this year. we plan to go and howl it up in grand style!

i think i’ve got the hang of THIS one November 23, 2005

Posted by introspectreangel in thoughtful.
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From Yahoo! News

Ignoring useless information aids memory: study

LONDON (Reuters) Filtering out useless information can help people increase their capacity to remember what is really important, researchers said on Wednesday.

Scientists at the University of Oregon in the United States have demonstrated that awareness, or visual working memory, does not depend on extra storage space in the brain but on an ability to ignore what is irrelevant.

“Until now, it’s been assumed that people with high capacity visual working memory had greater storage, but actually it’s about the bouncer — a neural mechanism that controls what information gets into awareness,” said Edward Vogel who headed the research team.

The findings reported in the journal Nature would overturn the accepted concept of memory capacity, which has suggested that how much a person can remember depends on the amount of information crammed into the brain at one time.

Vogel and his team believe the results could lead to better ways to enhance memory and improve the diagnosis and treatment of cognitive problems such as attention deficit disorder and schizophrenia.

damaged people November 23, 2005

Posted by introspectreangel in addiction, lyrics, marriage.
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we’re damaged people – drawn together
by subtleties that we are not aware of
disturbed souls – playing out forever
these games that we once thought we would be scared of

when you’re in my arms, the world makes sense
there is no pretence, and you’re crying
when you’re by my side, there is no defence
i forget to sense i’m dying

we’re damaged people – praying for something
that doesn’t come from somewhere deep inside us
depraved souls – trusting in the one thing
the one thing that this life has not denied us

when i feel the warmth of your very soul
i forget i’m cold and crying
when your lips touch mine and i lose control
i forget i’m old and dying…

precious November 22, 2005

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precious and fragile things need special handling
my God what have we done to you?
we always tried to share the tenderest of care
now look what we have put you through…

things get damaged, things get broken
i thought we’d manage, but words left unspoken
left us so brittle, there was so little left to give…

angels with silver wings shouldn’t know suffering
i wish i could take the pain for you
if God has a master plan that only He understands
i hope it’s your eyes He’s seeing through

things get damaged, things get broken
i thought we’d manage, but words left unspoken
left us so brittle, there was so little left to give…

i pray you learn to trust
have faith in both of us
and keep room in your heart for two

things get damaged, things get broken
i thought we’d manage, but words left unspoken
left us so brittle, there was so little left to give…


I’d give an awful, awful lot to be considered precious enough that you would be more careful about doing things you know will cause heartbreak in the end. Trust runs both ways, but it doesn’t begin at all until you take a chance and talk to me. Stop saying you can’t talk to me. You can. You choose not to. You think you’re protecting yourself, but you’re crippling yourself. It’s very, very sad to watch you do this.

“Cheryl, look: in God’s eyes we’re not two individuals, okay? We’re one unit now. So if you dick around with me, then you’re only dicking around with yourself.” -Douglas Coupland, “Hey Nostadamus!”

happy birthday, darlin’ November 20, 2005

Posted by introspectreangel in birthdays.

we are not, i repeat NOT, having a repeat of last year’s red beans and rice fiasco. i know it was the thought that counted and everything, but when trying to make your honey’s favorite recipe for his birthday here are some do NOTS, in no particular order:

do NOT use 3 TABLESPOONS of red pepper instead of 3 TEASPOONS
do NOT use Minute Rice
do NOT burn the beans and then scrape the bottom of the pot

when i mess something up, i mess it up GOOD.

bring your chains November 9, 2005

Posted by introspectreangel in music.
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you have $150 bucks. do you:

a) finally, 6 months after moving to a new state, pay the necessary taxes to get your car properly tagged and registered, or do you…

b) make a last minute, 2 and a half hour mad dash down the interstate to the depeche mode concert in the city you used to live in, get home at 2 am, and go to work on 3 hours sleep, which is something you haven’t done since COLLEGE for heaven’s sake?

oh, come ON!

November 3, 2005

Posted by introspectreangel in Boy-o, politics.

mamas, don’t let your babies grow up to be Republicans… 🙂