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RevGalBlogPals Friday Five: Avoidance April 28, 2006

Posted by introspectreangel in Friday Fives.
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this week we are being asked to name five things we do to avoid doing what really needs to be done. anyone who knows me knows “procrastination” is my middle name. well, ok, it’s really…wait a minute, I’m not telling you!

1. take a nap – coz you know, I’d do whatever it is I have to do, but I’m just too TIRED.

2. go to Wal Mart – coz you know, I’d do whatever it is I have to do, but I really need some broccoli for dinner tonight, and some more moisturizer…

3. go the hospital gift shop (at work) – coz you know, I’d do whatever it is I have to do, but they sent out that email thanking us for our continued support of the gift shop, and it made me feel bad.

4. go for a walk – coz you know I’d do whatever it is I have to do, but I haven’t gotten my exercise in today, and maybe after I do that I’ll feel more like doing whatever the other thing is that I have to do.

5. surf RevGal blogs – coz you know, NOTHING is more of a time waster than that!!


brand new colony April 26, 2006

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I want to take you far from the cynics in this town
And kiss you on the mouth
We’ll cut out bodies free from the tethers of this scene,
Start a brand new colony
Where everything will change,
We’ll give ourselves new names (identities erased)
The sun will heat the grounds
Under our bare feet in this brand new colony…

-The Postal Service

Happy anniversary, my love…it’s amazing how far we’ve come in five years…

busy day ahead… April 22, 2006

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…appointment with my spiritual director this morning (which, amazingly, i haven’t forgotten about!), which is about an hour’s drive north of where i live, and then my little sister’s bachelorette party revelry amid the local arts festival that shuts down every street in downtown, and this is taking place about a two hour drive south of where i live. suffice it to say, i will be in the car a LOT today. arrrggghhh.

i’ve seen a few of these… April 22, 2006

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…on other blogs and on myspace, so i decided i’d try my hand at it. it’s 75 of my favorite albums of all time. go ahead, make fun of my penchant for soundtracks and greatest hits collections. it’s ok. but don’t touch my skid row, baby, or sebastian bach will come after you!

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RevGalBlogPals Friday Five: Favorites April 21, 2006

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a nice easy Friday Five…yay! we’ve been ordered to not think too hard about them.

on this particular day, at this particular time, these are my favorites:

1) fruit

my favorite fruit of the moment are bananas. this is because one of them counts as two of my five daily servings of fruits and veggies.

2) song

“let go” by frou frou, or “new slang” by the shins – both from the soundtrack to the movie “garden state”. i’ve had it on repeat for days.

3) beverage

water, glorious water. it makes me feel clean…the cleanest i’ve been…an end to the tears and the in-between years and the troubles i’ve seen…

oops, sorry. i went off on a little depeche mode tangent there.

4) shoes

this ancient, like seriously, they’ve gotta be 10 years old now, pair of blue and grey airwalks. they make me feel like i’m still a kid (the picture above is my actual shoes, on my actual feet. not bad for a camera phone, eh?).

5) flower

calla lillies. all those others change from day to day, but this one never does.

i’m a faithful reader of i have ordinary addictions… April 21, 2006

Posted by introspectreangel in blogging, friends, funny, politics.
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…a blog by a very interesting girl named mandy who is a dreamer, idealist, traveler, and pop culture nerd. i’ve always wanted to travel, and thanks to her husband’s airline employee discount, she actually gets to, so there’s a little bit of vicarious living through her adventures. anyways, yesterday, she posted a link to an article on salon.com that was written by a classic east coast liberal – someone who is embarassed by the pledge of allegiance, suspicious of the military, and who called the ACLU when flyers for religious activities came home in her kid’s backpack (i dunno, she could have just, *gasp* thrown it away, maybe?) mandy was infuriated by the article, as was i. we both have socially liberal viewpoints on issues like gay rights, and while she hasn’t specified her views on so-called “conservative” hot-button issues, i’m sensing we may be similar there as well. the point of this ramble – and there is one – is to share the funny thing that happened in the comments to her post.


introspectreangel @ 3:29PM 2006-04-20

wow, that article was completely infuriating! i, too, grew up in a very republican family with a long history of military service, but developed more left-leaning viewpoints as i got older. what maybe makes us different is that my family was religious, and i have carried that into adulthood with me. what some people find strange (in light of the way that the christian right has hijacked the media and now presumes to speak for all church-going people) is that i developed these views within the context of my faith, i.e. feed the hungry, visit the sick, clothe the naked – in short, love one another. inclusion – it’s a lot less hassle than trying to figure out who you want to keep out of the club.

the other day, i was driving with my brother-in-law, who is a staunch republican, and he made some comment about the trees. his wife promptly said (jokingly), “you’re conservative – you hate trees!” i piped up from the back seat, “you know, it IS possible to be conservative and still be a good steward of God’s creation.” he said, “i know!” and i replied, ” just like it’s possible to be a liberal and care about family values.” he scoffed – literally. it made me sad. the extreme right and the extreme left have thoroughly succeeded in their campaigns to keep americans alienated and isolated – the “anti-science” right from our foreign neighbors by pushing an agenda of “might is right” and the “anti-religion” left from our next-door neighbors by ignoring and belittling the things that most average folks value – family, community, and keeping a bigger portion of the money we earn.

Mandy @ 3:38PM 2006-04-20

I know how you feel… the two sides have become so far apart that they don’t even have a perspective on what the other side believes. Lefties don’t chew up fetuses for Satan, and Righties don’t crucify gays for Jesus.

Generally. 🙂

Also, to maybe clarify my point, my family wasn’t anti-religious, we just didn’t go to church. My parents were very concerned with morals and all that, they just didn’t bring religion much into it. I am, and continue to be, a pretty religious person. It does make me really mad when, like you said, the religious right presumes to speak for all Christians. They certainly don’t speak for me! My version of Christianity is very, very different from theirs.


i was absolutely in stitches of laughter after reading this, and was going to comment accordingly, but the comments proceeded to take a more serious turn with explanations of the ideologies with which different people were raised and one comment that perhaps we should be secure enough in our viewpoints to not care what others think. which is TRUE and all, but not very funny. so i sent mandy an email on myspace:

“well, until these comments took a more serious turn, i WAS going to say that you had illustrated my point beautifully. i’m a moderate for the simple fact that i absolutely ADORE grilled fetuses with olive oil and a little lemon juice, especially as an appetizer before i head out to a gay crucifixion, which in these parts of the state we hold on Saturdays, specifically to desecrate the Jewish sabbath. then i thought about it some more, and i thought it might seem…well, a little graphic for your blog. :)”

at which point she virtually demanded that i post this in the real comments, “to bring some levity to the situation”. so i did. but if you are offended, just remember that it is all her fault.


He is not here April 16, 2006

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“In their fright the women bowed down with their faces to the ground, but the men said to them, “Why do you look for the living among the dead? He is not here; he has risen!” -Luke 24:5-6

Alleluia !

I found out recently… April 12, 2006

Posted by introspectreangel in family, theology, worship.

…that the town in which I work was founded in large part by a handful of Jewish families, and that, until two years ago, it was home to the only synagogue in the state south of the capital (two years ago the synagogue shut down). So, when shopping for tonight’s Seder I was somewhat surprised that I was unable to find matzoh in either of the town’s grocery stores. I’m substituting pita.

This will be the third year that we have celebrated Seder. The text we use is adapted from the Christian Passover Seder for Holy Thursday, which can be found on the Women for Faith & Family website. Needless to say, we haven’t ever been able to actually do the meal on Holy (Maundy) Thursday itself because of various familial and church obligations, but we try and get as close as possible. The Jewish Passover begins tonight, so I thought it would be a good night.

The first year, I prepared the meal for my family and for my in-laws, when I was pregnant-out-to-here with Boy-o. My family was familiar with the ritual, because the Catholic parish I grew up in celebrated Seder on Holy Thursday. My Methodist in-laws weren’t familiar with it, so I made sure they had LOTS of reading parts! Last year, Will and I hosted it in our home and I invited a few very close friends, some Christian, some not. This year, due to the fact that I have a two year old and am a notorious procrastinator, it’s gonna be just Will and me. Since daylight savings time has just started, Gabe will undoubtedly be in bed by sundown when we get started. And trust me, he is a child of routines – this is not a kid whose sleep patterns you want to interfere with!

Why do we do Seder? Because our celebration of the Eucharist was born of the Jewish Passover, because Jesus and his disciples were Jewish, because Easter is about our reconciliation with God through Christ, and because we feel it’s essential to celebrate the past in order to fully explain the Good News of the Gospels. It’s all one story, a story that stretches from the ancient Israelites and the first Passover, to you and me and our families and neighbors and those whom we love and those with whom we disagree.

And it’s darned good eatin’, too!

Tonight’s menu:

tomato, onion, and spinach salad
wild rice
pita bread
haroseth (a mixture of apples, cinammon, raisins, honey, and red wine)
red wine – lots!

Elements of the Seder ceremony:

lamb (pesach), applies to the Lamb of sacrifice as well as to the deliverance from Egypt and to the feast itself.

unleavened bread (pita, not matzoh in this case), representing the unleavened bread prepared for the hasty flight by night from Egypt.

green herbs (parsley) dipped in salt water, representing tears of sorrow shed during the captivity of the Lord’s people.

bitter herbs (horseradish), representing the bitterness of slavery and suffering in Egypt.

haroseth represents the mortar used by Jews in building palaces and pyramids of Egypt during their slavery.

wine is dipped from a common bowl. The ‘Four Cups,’ Thanksgiving, Hagadah (‘telling’), Blessing, and Melchisedek (‘righteousness’), are “four different words for redemption, spoken by God to Moses.”

A blessed and meaningful Holy Week to all.

invasion April 5, 2006

Posted by introspectreangel in chaos, friends, life, lyrics.
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a very self-indulgent, “pity-me” kind of post that blatantly reveals my attachment to material posessions…

in march of 2003, while i was away from home on a business trip and my husband was at a gaming convention, our house was broken into. we didn’t have much in the way of monetarily valuable posessions, and thus the electronics that were taken (a couple of DVD players and VCR’s – whoever the thief was, he obviously recognized our two ancient computers for the pieces of junk that they were and left them alone!) didn’t particularly hit us where it hurt. what did hurt was the loss of my husband’s guns that were given him by his father and grandfather, and the loss of a music collection i had spent years building. i was still pen-and-paper journaling at that point, and the loss of my music was so grievous to me that i couldn’t even write about it. here, now, three years after the fact, i’m finally committing to a written medium what it meant to lose my records and CD’s. three years! i’ve had broken relationships that i didn’t grieve over for that long (of course, i had several that i did, but that is quite beside the point – a relationship is one thing, a digitally inscribed piece of plastic and glass and metal is another)!

but see, the thing is, they weren’t just pieces of glass and plastic with some songs on them. my cd’s and records were grocery money spent otherwise, hours spent skipping class and browsing through used record stores for particular bands or particular songs, they were the soundtracks to falling in love as well as heinous breakups, they were background music to dinners with friends and stay-awake music on roadtrips. they were liner notes read and lyrics memorized, they were love and hate, anger and joy, despair and mania, they were souveneirs of places traveled and friends made and lost. they were a means of support when i had to sell a bunch of the ones i didn’t care about so much to afford to keep traveling. they traveled in their jewel cases and in big albums of plastic sleeves, and they were always getting put back in the wrong places. they were country, rock, electronic, metal, celtic, pop, gothic, and all the various sub-genres within. when i lost them forever to a thief, i couldn’t even begin to place a price on them, nor was i ever able to make any attempt to catalog them and try to begin replacing them. it wasn’t just the music itself, it was what was happening in my life when i aquired the album or single or tribute or compilation or collection. mp3’s are not the same. i have managed to replace through music downloads most of the tunes i truly loved, but i can’t touch those wonderful shiny discs ever again. it breaks my heart, but now, three years later, i’m thinking maybe i should finally cry about it and perhaps move on. so, this evening, i walked into a local books-and-music store and purchased a used copy of one of my favorite oldies-but-goodies: new order’s “republic”. let the healing begin!

“when this building is on fire and these flames can’t burn any higher, i turn sideways to the sun and in a moment i am gone…”

“Don’t put a question mark where God put a period.” April 4, 2006

Posted by introspectreangel in Episcopal, faith, family.

This was on a list of “one-liners for Christians” that I received via mass-forward email earlier this week, and I’ve been mulling it over ever since. Everything about this particular phrase pushes my “seeker buttons” in all the wrong ways. Every kid goes through a “why” stage, but…well, I never grew out of mine. I know in many ways I’m a weakling in the faith arena. In fact, I told my sister-in-law just the other day that I’ve always been Thomas, demanding to touch the wounds in order to fully believe.

My husband and I darkened the door of an Episcopal church for the first time in 2002, but the fact that we didn’t have to check our brains with the welcoming committee led us to go back again…and again…and to participate in Inquirer’s class (wow, a whole class devoted to questions!) and then pursue confirmation (for him) and reception (for me) into the Church. I wasn’t raised with a literalist interpretation of Scripture, but it was here that I learned for the first time what Scripture really is – a love story between a people and their Creator. Anyone who’s ever fallen in love knows it can be perplexing (to say the least!) and that it raises all kinds of questions. “What’s happening to me? Why here? Why now? Why YOU?! Why do you do and say the things you do and say? I just don’t get it!” (Funny side note: I have a co-worker who says that when her now-husband asked her to marry him, she said “You don’t know what you’re asking!”) Anyone who’s ever followed that love through to the next step and committed themselves for a lifetime to another person also know that at the end of the day, all the questions come down to this: “All I know is I can’t imagine my life without you in it.” And I cannot imagine my life without faith.

Is my love for my husband and family less than perfect because I question it? Yes! Absolutely, yes it is! I am not God. I do not know how to love perfectly, and I never will. I keep traveling this road towards a deeper understanding of what it means to be loved by God and to then translate that love into true discipleship, and I plan to keep asking my questions along the way in order to exercise my God-given intellect.